Imagine how your stomach might churn, your knees shake, imagine the thoughts racing through your head if your Dr handed you down this news..."you've got 6 months, I'm terribly sorry." Kinda creepy, isn't it. It happens every day to people. But in reality none of us know which day will be the last on Earth, and we should strive to make each one count. Here's something you must do, write your obituary as if you died today. Write it honestly, think about your accomplishments, people you've helped. This is a real eye opener, seeing how you view your life. Before sobriety, I honestly felt my life had no meaning and I had an unhealthy self-hate. The people I would help in life were the ones close to me, and I seldom did anything for them. Clean and sober, I want to do all I can for as many as I can for as long as I can. I want to spend my time on this planet with purpose, that being serving God and man. I don't want anyone to feel I'm being bragadocious at all. This is just what drives me today.
"teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Ps.90:12 (NKJV)
I'm unsure how I would use each day of 6 mos. if that's what I had. But I'm sure I wouldn't go skydivin' or Rockie mountain climbing. (I love that song) Giving it some thought, I would talk, or write to my wife, my children, my grandchildren, as much as could about life and living. I would try my best to help them understand serving God and all of the rewards, and the joy, and the serenity doing His service offers. I would explain the benefits of serving people that need help, not to be big-headed, or proud, don't trust in money, be prepared spiritually in every situation, and pray often, pray daily over your home, your children, spouse, coworkers, friends, your place of worship. I don't think I could mention all of the things I would want to say, but they'd probably hope I would give it a rest, my wife does now. The question I ask myself is, "why don't you do that now, why wait?" I think its fear of being over bearing and turning them off. So, if you had just 6 months, what would you do?
Most people may think of that dream trip, or hanging out at the casino, many would try just to enjoy what's left, I understand. But think about it. Now do one more thing, write your obituary as if you died 20 yrs from now. Would anything be different? Think about it. Have a great weekend, stay clean, stay sober. God bless and keep you all. Keith