Step two: "Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." Big Book of AA
I couldn't return to thinking or living normal after 18 years of drinking and using drugs without some help. I couldn't even find my way to help. I asked the Pastor of my church, Chuck W. about what to do. (I'm not giving his last name, I didn't ask permission to do so, I'm sure you don't know who I'm talking about....right.) He suggested AA, he suggested Celebrate Recovery at the Franklin Vineyard where he pastors, (oops, now everyone knows it's Chuck Wolfinbarger), and a couple of other ideas. With each suggestion I had an excuse. I guess wasn't sure I really wanted to quit. If I committed to stop, that would be it. The party would finally be over.
When I finally walked into my first AA meeting, I knew that this program had helped thousands. I had thoughts of how it was inside AA, those presumptuous thoughts that never are close to being how it really is. And there, among people just like me, broken and in need of repair, was a presence I didn't expect...it was God! All of what I thought I knew about God and how He operates, and whom He visits, had to be thrown away. It was among these people who had taken from others, used up friends and families until they were gone, He was there, showing mercy and giving grace to those completely unworthy. I came to believe in an AA meeting, that only He alone could restore me, more importantly, make me over again.
"He restores my soul; He leads me in paths of righteousness, for His namesake." Ps.23:3 (NKJV)
As I said I had to get rid of my religious thinking how God must work, according to the gospel of Keith. the real Gospel of Jesus showed how angry the religious became because Jesus was associating with the lower class, beaten down, and walked on. Jesus reminded those poor religious folk that it wasn't those who were well that needed a physician, but it was the the sick who did. Now it's clear, I am sick and in need...and He's the healer. I can say He's there for all because we're all sick and broken. Once we take God out of the boxed corner we keep Him in, take away those limits we put on His ability, then He restores and completes us. "But God, my pastor said You only work this way, you can't heal that man, he hasn't got saved yet!" My friends, if this is what you believe, take another look at Jesus, a long, deep look. Don't exclude the down-trodden from His kingdom. The addicts and alcoholics, and all who have addictions.. they may be the ones welcoming you at the door of His heaven. Thanks for reading, God bless and keep you all, Keith.