Never, do I want to forget the misery I inflicted on my life, and the lives of others, from my living so self-indulgently when drinking and using drugs. I know that living in such a self-gratifying manner was hard on my dear mother and father, and my children, especially, my neglect and lack of participation in their lives. I love mom and dad, I adore my kids and grandchildren, but my addiction contolled my every thought and action. Most importantly, I had turned from God, and began to worship another...myself. All of His goodness, mercy, and grace, that no other could show me was forsaken to live in a dark place. I was self-deceived, self-diluted, self-driven, to follow the deceiver that caused me to see the glitter and flash of sin and it's phoney happiness, in living as I pleased. No rules, no constraint, no humility...only me and what I wanted.
"Be careful that you don't forget the Lord, who brought you out
of Egypt, out of the land of slavery." Deut.6:12 (NIV)
I forgot God, I forgot how He had heard my prayer for a good job, for healthy children, and for guidance, and all of the many little areas He had given me favor with others, and caused me to have success. When I had enough of myself, and saw I was deceived, He loved me so much, and led me to help. I don't ever want to forget again. Many who come into AA/NA, Celebrate Recovery, and all of the other programs of help, forget how God helped them to help others. They remain sober by following the steps to sobriety, but they forget by not seeking out meetings where help is truly needed. They find their "comfort meetings," where it's convenient to attend, where their friends hang. They will still help others, but don't place themselves in a position to help others who are really needing them... I have been guilty of that.
This is true of the followers of Christ as well. We find a church to get involved in, or a place of comfort, good music, great preaching...and stop. We forget our brokeness, was to teach us to mature in a relationship to God, and share Him with others. We only concern we have is that our children believe, our siblings, our parents, our, our, our. We then become "Christians" but not followers of Christ. Why does the secular world detest God? Why does the media portray mainstream Christianity as backwoods Bible thumpers? Part of the reason is that we live no different than they do, we don't seem to care. We point at their sins, we say, "hate the sin, love the sinner," but hate the prostitute, that don't know how to get free, the homosexual, the thief, etc. We honor God with our lips, but our hearts are far from Him. We forgot where He brought us from.
To the AA/NA and others in recovery programs; don't forget to remember your low estate when you came into freedom. Find meetings to help others. To the believers; stop telling how sorrowful you are over lost humanity, don't say you feel sorry about the poor family down the street whose child just died of an overdose, show it. Sincerely ask God to help you to help the dying. This is not a game, we are going to face what we accuse others of. Be broken for the brokeness of others, and never forget. Thanks for reading, God bless and keep you all, Keith.