Who truly understands grief and sorrow? We never think of ourselves being the one that causes the family to gather. One day it will be. None of us really give deep thought to our own passing, and I really feel that doing so would take us into a depressed state that may be difficult to recover from. I can focus on my home in heaven and think of those questions that believers have like; I wonder who I'll see first, my brother, grandpa, grandma? Or, I wonder what I'll see, the beauty, splendor, the sounds? But to think of family members broken, crying and empty, knowing they will never see me on this Earth again, I'll pass, think of things pleasant, what's on the agenda today. I do think some pondering about my eventual demise is healthy. It is when family and friends laugh about things I may have said and silly things I may have done, I can smile. And thinking of the legacy of doing good, causing laughter, and never stop learning how to do things better for God and man, these things cause me to think of that day in a positive light. My friends, it may be a nice thought to leave a truckload of money and goods for loved ones. (something they can fight over) But to leave them with a desire to be better at everything, giving their lives to pleasing God and finding ways to help others, is priceless.
These thoughts come to mind when we lose loved ones. Our family has yet another loss. My wife's cousin, James, just 40, gone. To see the family gathering again in what seems days apart does not feel real. The questions are coming in, the room where family sets stunned, and the heavy sense of anguish, all of these being experienced anew. Where is God? He is where I expect Him, right there with us, sensing the loss as well.
"Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints." Ps. 116:15 (KJV)
That word, precious, means "costly." It cost God when loss of life occurs, in ways we won't comprehend until we're present with Him. When Jesus was coming to the end of his ministry, and the cross lay just ahead, a dear friend of his died. Knowing that those seeking his life would be at the families home to grieve, he went anyway. "Lord, if you had only been there"....those questions were there for him back then as they are now. Jesus wanted to know where his friend Lazarus was laid. Then, Jesus wept. The passage says earlier that he groaned in his spirit, and was troubled. God is affected when anyone passes, he is sorrowful daily, but for us, only when we're related closely in some way. There is good news...Jesus stood, as a man grieving for his friend, in front of that tomb of Lazarus. As God he called out, "Lazarus, come forth!" Lazarus did, all were amazed, grief was laid aside for another day. Jesus said, "I AM THE RESURRECTION AND THE LIFE!" And He is. As Moses stood before the burning bush with questions of how he could stand before Pharoah, the most powerful man in the world, and tell him to let God's people go, and who sent him, God said you tell him, I AM. And He is. He may grieve with us, feel our hurts, but He also has the final say. He is the Resurrection, He is I AM. I Am whatever you need. Today the family needs peace and comfort. That is what He will be.