The dry seasons come and go. If you are like me, you know the time and effort put into blogging has apparent little reward. Yet, we write, we take the time hoping someone reads our words and rhymes. The further hope is that by God's grace, the reader's life is changed. I aim this toward the bloggers writing in relationship to Christ, of recovery from addictions, of Christian conduct, values, and of matters of spiritual maturation.
I write every day but have only posted a couple of times this year. Work and personal issues have kept me fairly well side-lined the past year. I did question whether I would continue writing at all, unsure my feeble attempt had any effect on readers. I based particular thoughts of ending my short writing career on: 1) I am not a schooled writer. 2) The book I wrote that gave me this alter-ego; mister-know-all- things-recovery-spiritualityman...well the book didn't fly off of the shelf. 3) The battle onslaught from the dark side is horrendous if you are helping others, writing and working in recovery groups namely. These things don't move me, the Greater One lives in me. They are temporal so nothing good comes from fearing them.
NOW HEAR THIS
Do not misunderstand my direction here. I am grateful for the opportunity to write and truly enjoy the challenge. The thought of giving writing up was not, and is not my way of pouting God-ward, asking Him what the big idea was..."You trying to make me look stupid or something, dear Lord." No, no, a thousand times no. It was truly time and issues that gave me the notion to quit.
I write this post with you, the writers, poets, authors, musicians, students, and everyone thinking about quitting what they sense God has laid on their hearts to do in His kingdom. God knows how to speak to me and I felt it necessary to attempt to convey this to you. Reading Galatians yesterday, (that is His way of getting me the message), Paul's words reminded me that I, and you, need to fulfill our calling. Check this out:
"Live creatively friends.....make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then SINK YOURSELF INTO THAT. Don't be impressed with yourself. Don't compare yourself to others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life." vs. 1a, 4-7 (MSG)
"So let's not allow ourselves to get fatigued in doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don't give up, or quit. Right now, therefore, every time we get a chance, let us work for the benefit of all, starting with the people closest to us in the community of faith." vs.9-10 (MSG)
The dry seasons come and go. These times are where we learn and grow. We learn little on the mountain top experiences, singing, dancing, and all. Like the passage says, live creatively, put your all into Christ,and He will give you all you need to accomplish your ministry. Don't be concerned with FB likes, Twitter re-tweets, and comments on your posts. Remember who you work for and Who is working through you.
Now get out there and...just do it, in Jesus name.
When I sobered up through AA, I knew it was God's doing. He led me to AA, AA helped lead me back to God. I saw Him in a new light and He turned the Lights on for me to see His loving hands guiding me, and protecting me throughout my life.
Epiphanies came often through recovery meetings. My views on religion were shattered. I suddenly had clarity and a truer view of life's meanings. I had wants and needs lifelong that brought everything but happiness. Thought's like; If only I had money, if only I was born into wealth, if only she was my woman, if only....
Nothing satisfied. What I needed, I did not want. What I wanted, I thought I needed. As time passed and I acquired things, went places, and became friends with those who might boost my name and reputation, emptiness resulted. I ended up broken, divorced, and a daily drunk, grasping for more, needing and wanting the truth to show up. That truth I sought was that I was right. I was an empty shell that arrogantly knew better than everyone else. How foolish.
Epiphany That Removed The Scales From My Eyes
In recovery, you hear a lot of crazy things. You also hear God speak through others. My moment of clarity came in a meeting one day, crushing my beliefs, my supposed needs, and selfish wants. It may have been an AA member speaking, but it was Jesus' words screaming at me:
..."let the greater among you become like the younger, and the one who rules
like the one who serves...I am among you as one who serves." Luke 22:26-27
Did I want joy, peace, and love? No, I needed them. Did I want to know my purpose in life? I needed to know, I needed to know that my previous thoughts of purpose was twisted as well. Did I want to know my life, in the end, was not a total waste? NO, I had to know.
If I want purpose, and the benefits of love, joy, and peace that accompany, I had to go second in life, everyone else go first...I had to serve.
Here was real life, total satisfaction, a path leading to the Master Servant's mysteries, secrets known but hidden. Pointing others to find their need to know how to want the real Truth is all I will ever need, all I want....hang the rest.
I hope my thoughts here are helpful to you. I hope you discover it is about you, how you see life through people, places, and things. The Greatest Servant who ever lived, died, and rose bodily from the dead, still serves as your personal attorney, thwarting the accusations from the evil one. Look at what you want and need. If you want and need to know your purpose with all of the perks, retain Christ Jesus as your lawyer. He will work out the details.
Shalom to all.