Its Sunday and I was watching a little football action, Cleveland over Miami by a nose. I was only about half interested because I was thinking about Sunday afternoons in my illustrious past. Then, after the early game, I was a little lit up and eager for the next game. By the time the second game ended, I was either passed out, or had that empty feeling, another weekend wasted. I'm so glad God lead me out of that life. My thoughts turned to others who still suffer with addictions. Right now, their feeling good, screaming at the TV like the team can hear them, or already out cold. That life stinks. They may not think so yet, but when things are quiet, they reflect and see their emptiness. Is that you? Is that someone you love? After years of waste I wanted out, tried everything, but nothing worked. I came to believe that something or someone bigger than me could help, eventually I found that help.
I cannot tell you the times people have come to me for help to get free. Or family members ask me to give a spouse, a child, or a close friend a call, hoping I can persuade them to quit doping or drinking. I have found that my best efforts are in vain if they are unwilling. When I call, they aren't ready. They call me, they're ready, they've finally made it, they're a the bottom. Congratulations! It's not the loss of property, jobs, or even family that causes the final "bottom." It's the inward feeling of brokeness, the thought that either I stop drinking or I die.
(to God) "So listen! and be kind! Help me out of this!" Psalms 30:10 (MSG) God is ready when you are. Verse 11 says, "and You did it: You changed wild lament into a whirling dance!" Ask Him for help whether you believe he exist or not. If He doesn't exist, it cost you nothing. If He does exist, you'll gain everything! But be serious when you ask. This is surrender, you stop running the universe and allow Him to do what He does best. Then get to an AA or NA meeting where people will love you until you're able to love yourself. These people are ready for you and your baggage, they'll help you shoulder the load. You, or the one in your life that has the drinking/drug/gambling/overeating/pornography/anger/fear/...enough already, whatever your addiction, you must choose, life to the full or living death. If you choose the addictions..God help you, we can pray for your family. If you choose life, you'll be glad you came to believe. Thanks y'all. God bless and keep you. This site is still under construction with empty pages. I will try to have it complete over the next week or so...but you can still click on the pages, the colors are pretty!