I am trying to get this into my thick head once and for all; STOP TRYING TO BE HAPPY! People cannot make me happy. Mark Twain's famous quote,"familiarity breeds contempt...and children," may be true to a point. Expecting happiness to come from another person is saying your happiness depends on that person meeting your expectations of them. Good luck with that one.
I bought a new Chevy truck, a crew cab, 4x4 Silverado with all of the gingerbread, bells, whistles, and stuff I have no idea how to work. It didn't make me happy. I also purchased a nice Cape Cod home with all wood floors, manicured lawn, and a back yard that looks like an arboretum. No happiness did I find here either. Things do not provide long- term happiness either.
The thought of going to Europe, the Far East, the South Pacific, or spending the summer in the beauty of America's great Northwest, or New England in the fall, Florida in the winter should make me, or anyone happy, one would think. Nope, not happening. Although I have not had this experience, I'm sure a week or two outside of home would leave a void and take away the happiness I thought I would find there.
In recovery, I have learned that people, places, and things are unreliable in providing happiness. Those items can put me back on a bar stool if I make them my aim, or give them my worship. Early in sobriety I was taught to shun them like the plague. Going back to old friends, haunts, and doing the same things are ground zero for relapse. The same holds true for followers of Christ. Idolize this world and the belongings that render me immediate sensual gratification, and Christ is removed from my center, only I matter. Selah.
"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore." Ps. 16:11
God sees to the removal of happiness from my life. That's not a bad thing. It is a wonderful thing because He replaces fleeting happiness with something permanent...joy. Taking a trip, sitting peacefully in the back yard watching my little dog play, (Kitty's her name), or taking a drive in the truck, knowing God is the center and the reason for all good things...and present within me, makes me say to myself, "shoo happiness, you deceiver, joy lives here."
Thanks for reading, God bless and keep you all.