Saying the wrong thing comes natural for me. I've always wanted to make sure everyone knows how I feel and that I'm right. Ego+mouth=trouble. That is a good math formula, don't you agree? Seriously, most of my life went that way. If you liked Hunts catsup, you were wrong, Heinz ketchup is the best, your tastebuds are really messed up. That would be enough for me to not like you. How childish I have been. Of course, your still wrong about the Hunts catsup, but I like you anyway. Getting sober and working to stay that way has brought the opinions I've had and the things I've said to my attention. God has used the rooms of AA, Celebrate Recovery, prayer, and the daily feasting on the Word, to show me that my opinions had to go. Then the mouth had to be retrained to speak life, not death. "Life and death are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit." Prov.18:21 (NKJV) I have learned that my words carry a lot of weight, especially to the person to whom it matters the most, me. I believe what I say and what I think about myself. If I call myself an idiot when I mess up, i believe that. If I say I don't like to read, I believe that. If I say I'm not much on exercise, I believe that too. I put myself in a "dead zone" so to speak with my verbal opinions of myself. I've had to make the uturn with my way of thinking and talking, and have arrived in the "living life" sector. It's harder to live there because my lease there says, "no procrastination, no laziness," It's easy living with the dead because there's no rules, just be your hateful, scornful, opinionated self.
I want to stay away from dead talk, and spread life with my words. I don't want people running to hide when they see me coming. No one wants to hang around a grump. I think the other six dwarfs didn't care much for Grumpy, especially Happy and Snow White, if the truth be known. People love to be around happy people that pick them up and encourage them. People that wear a smile no matter what their employer does, or how much their wife or husband screams and yells, or how bad the choir at church stinks. So which one are you? Now be honest, if you're thinking right now you're not that bad, you're that bad. People aren't going to tell you, they want to live. Just think when you walk into the group at work what you're about to say. Is it life or death? Think when you walk into your child's messed up room. Is it life or death? I'm doing my best today, I think, to speak life in this world we live in, its hard but needful, I want to live life to the full and stay full of life. Thanks for reading, God bless you all. Keith......oh yeah, t