Make it to Meetings
A friend and I were standing outside of the AA biker club the other night, talking about recovery meetings. We were not talking about the meeting we were about to attend, who was chairing the meeting, or which meetings we preferred to attend. The conversation was all about our need to attend meetings, even after long term sobriety.
Walt has over two decades of living clean and sober. When I first met him, I was very impressed, hearing what he had to say in meetings, and his eloquent appeal to those in the room to live in freedom, and to follow directions out of the hell they've given themselves to. He nearly lost his life to drinking and drugging. Walt learned the secret to sober living, and passed it on to others, like me.
He said to me, "Keith, I'm still broken. I still need fixing, I need to hear what is said in these rooms." His past was dark, full of sorrow and hurts. He never wants to return there, so he said, "I still need to come here."
I share that sentiment with him. We have broken pasts that have had a great effect on our present and future. That effect is to infect as many as we can with the hope of living free from addiction, to stop attending meetings to just get help, and be a help. We both know we walk the razor's edge when we stop attending, serving, and praying. Many have. Many have died because they did. He and I know we have to keep humility as an aim each day, asking God for help.
"There is a solution. Almost none of us liked the self-searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of short comings which the process requires for it's successful consummation. But we saw that it really worked in others, and we had come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living it....there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at our feet. We have found much of heaven and we have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence of which we had not even dreamed."
The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, pg.25
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