Looking back throughout my past can take me in one of two directions. I can look back and wonder, "what a waste," or, in total gratitude to God for everything He has brought me out of, saved me from falling into, and untold mercies and good gifts in my life. I want to literally shake myself to see if I'm really awake at times, because of His incomprehensible ways of working out the very details of my everyday living...even when I was far from His will for me. I do not want to look back at what may have been, as though I have missed the mark and cannot be used to achieve, feeling worthless to God and man. I want to use every stupid act I've committed as a gift to others on their way to blunderville.
I do not want anyone to think I regard sin as a gift, but sins we have committed can be used to God's glory, with a heart truly repentant. You may have a checkered past and feel unworthy to be used by God. Wrong! He will take all of your brokeness, selfishness, and ignorance, and place you in a position to serve, as you surrender. Get pumped! Get your mind set on enough being enough! When your mind becomes fixed on living to please Him, serve others, and put self aside, watch out. God is taking you places you never dreamed of. The gifts you have been given are surfacing! Shake them up, stir yourself!
"Sin is too stupid to see beyond itself." Alfred Lord Tennyson
If we dwell in the thoughts of our past, we restrict what God has in our future. Our faults and failures can be a type of slavery that cannot be emmancipated. But looking into the liberty we receive through God, we become stirred deep in our spirits to forgive ourselves and motivate others to good works. In God's economy, our value is of extreme importance, we carry a personna of the presence of God. When I walk into a room, Jesus is in the room. When I arrive at work...Jesus is present. We must free ourselves of our feelings of inferiority, and stir ourselves to see Who is with us continually.
This is the end of another calender year. I have had wonderful news, and I have had much sorrow. I can say that the majority of problems has been my own doing, trying to run the world, control everthing around me, and not surrendering my regal greatness. A new year is approaching and I'm really not big on resolutions. But I do have resolve, that in 2012, to get stirred, not to rule over people places and things, but to reign in life through Christ. I hope you feel the same. We can move into a higher spiritual plane, when surrendered. God can use you...and me. I am ready.
Thanks for reading, God bless and keep you all. Keith