I had all of these ideas of what I wanted to be when I grew up. Early memories were that of being a fireman or a policeman, then a little older I wanted to be certain celebrities like, Tarzan, or Cheyenne Brodie, or Cookie from the TV show, "77 Sunset Strip." I made good use of those 6 stations we were able to receive. As I grew into adulthood and all of those ideas faded away, I reached for the stars to experience wealth unimaginable....if I could only hit the lottery. That didn't happen, but neither did any of the high goals I had set. So I decided to punish God and everyone I cared about and become a party animal, and a alcoholic. I was fairly successful at that, I got all kinds of things. I got fired, divorced, lost the respect of my kids, my own self respect, and the hits just kept coming. When I finally had enough of paying the high price of a low life, God gave me help through AA and many helpful people. (Sorry, this is not supposed to be a bio, just trying to give a pic from my past to illustrate how life don't go with my flow.) The great thing I've discovered is that I don't have to look back in remorse, but in gratitude. I had to go through every thing I went through to get where I am today, broken, but useful to God. Augustine said that God used even our sin to His benefit, that is so true.
"A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps." Prov.16:9 (NKJV)
I still believe in being something when I grow up, and I'm actually working on that today. I want to conform my life to Christ's image. When I grow up, I want to be of service to those suffering like I did with alcohol and drug use, or any addiction. When I grow up, I want to be the best husband, father, son, and friend I can possibly be. I know my story is your story but the circumstances may be a tad different. But if you and I truly have Christ and service to others as our aim, we'll reach our goal and live out our expectations, because God directs our steps. Love and peace to you all, Keith. Have a great weekend!